It seems easier now..

Now that I've passed my plateau.
I was sitting on 55 kg for the longest time and no matter how hard I tried, would only dip below that number by 0.5 or (ugh) gain up to a kilo more.

Now I'm 53.3. I've gone from 121 lbs to 117 lbs in a few short weeks. I'm not quite sure how I managed to get past my plateau but whatever I'm doing must be working :)

I couldn't decide what to eat yesterday on break, so I went to the foodcourt and searched hard for something that wasn't dripping in fat and salt/sugar. I ended up getting a sandwich cut into 4 small triangles with different things on each one. I was so hungry and thought I'd eat it all but when I got back to the lunchroom discovered that one of those triangles had avocado on it. ( I'm MAJORLY allergic to avocado, I turn beet red! haha!) So I ended up not having the entire sandwich for lunch. I also ate a small handful of grapes.

The strangest thing happened. I was serving on the counter with my work friends and felt really light headed. Not that that's strange per se, I've just never experienced anything like it before. My hands were shaking and my vision kept blurring in and out of focus. I figured I should go to the store next door and get something to lift my sugar levels (I don't particularly want to pas out at work, as they'll more than likely call and ambulance and tell my parents..) so I went and bought a small bag of lollies that I figured I'd share with everyone on the counter to save calories ;) The old lady that worked at the store asked, 'Are you getting your sugar fix?' and I answered yes, a little unsteady on my feet. 'Your body is smart' she said, 'It tells you when you need it'.
I agreed that indeed it is smart, and made my way back to work. I only ended up having a couple so it was a small price to pay for discretion.

Then I went Christmas shopping with my aunt and nana, and while they munched cheeseburgers and fries and shakes from McDonald's, I had a skin-free chicken burger. No fries. No shake, just an ice blended drink.
All in all I think I had a fairly low-cal day yesterday.
Now I have to go and organise Christmas presents and start wrapping :) Might even go for a run later.

Hope everyone is well.

Much love,
SJ x

New low weight!

Stepped on the scale this morning.. it read 53.4 kg (117 lbs).
I haven't weighed this number since grade 7! I was a fatty back then, I know haha.

I bought a copy of Wasted the other day and haven't been able to put it down! It's so raw and real; nothing is sugar-coated and I can relate to some of what the author says. I don't quite know what to make of that realisation. I don't know whether to be scared or relieved.

This is going to be a short post today. I have to go to work (ugh).

Hope everyone is well!

Much love,

SJ xx